"All you know is the way
That he made you feel
He made you feel safe enough
To feel at all
It's all there in the moment
You understood
That he's not going on
And you're still going on"

words: the heavyhitters

miller

kerouac

bruce

dylan

pryor

carlin

hicks

and maybe oswalt, if only for this joke:

“Me want see Grand Canyon!”
Javier Bardem in Frankenstein Meets The Bucket List

be like this:

grasping at strands

trying to pull a something closer

wrestling with a something

a something with a face

you can do nothing but remember

in a state of pure happiness

bliss with a place in you

confused by how complicated

every living thing is

but the bottle is simple

and you drink, drink, drink till it’s through

and it’s warm and true

because it’s there

and you can’t remember when it wasn’t

because you have the receipt

with the date and the time

stamped in around the price.

 

“one more, please.”

things are easier in the Spring because

you can’t remember

a difficult Spring

so i just saw Gran Torino in a packed theater with many of my fellow Americans, and let me tell you... American hypocrisy is alive and well. the theater literally bust up laughing, and even had spats of applause at the main characters racist comments. mainly because they were directed at Asians and Hispanics. i know for a fact if he had said "nigger" there would have been nothing but gasps. but no, "slope" and "zipperhead" gets huge laughs. awesome. it was really surreal.

that being said, it was a fucking awesome movie.

in sharing a hotel room with my cousin this weekend i found out when i sleep:

i sigh a lot

i sound frustrated

and i "move like [i] want someone to fix something"

no wonder i wake up tired. sleeping apparently causes unpleasant sensations to my body and mind. this is depressing.

"The atom bomb is not a respecter of persons!"

i think my mind and body are all screwed up

there's no harmony

no synchronization

i wake up tired

and go to sleep wired

i suppose

it's a strange state

where perhaps

everything is possible

but it only seems to happen

when i'm in a state of no-control

so nothing really happens

because i can't remember

all i know is

i'm still waking up

and things are happening.

goddamn i'm burnin through these Preacher comics faster than i can afford em. sooo freakin good though.