if you think about how difficult this must have been, it'll blow your mind:

this show totally kills me:

"british children are notoriously stupid and must attend schools."

agreed

just read:

TOTALLY the shit.

not to be a bummer, but this link will take you to a clip from a new documentary about Genesis P-Orridge and s/he is clearly out of it since the death of their beloved Lady Jaye. :( still interesting though. 

ahead of their time, whatever that means

gotta love ginsberg

Well, while I'm here I'll

                  do the work-

and what's the Work?

             To ease the pain of living.

Everything else, drunken

                             dumbshow.

i really need to reconnect with my studying of Burroughs and Genesis. that's the first thing i'm going to dive into when i graduate. studying them and their ideas. Genesis truly is the only person on the planet right now that i'm aware of that is trying to push things forward. and s/he's pushing 60. s/he should really be a bigger deal that s/he is right now.

is it bad that i kind of hate all this "bi-partisan" talk?
all this "come together" talk?
i'd kind of rather things get super crazy
i don't know

also,
it's strange to sense such a role reversal going on
the past two elections, liberals villainized Bush to crazy extremes
and i guess it was its own kind of irrational desperation
and now the conservatives are villainizing Obama in the same ways.
it's just strange. after 8 years of republican stranglehold they lost their grip.
they got away with SO much. how they lost it is beyond me.
it makes me suspicious that threw the election and this is all in the master plan...
they're so damn tricky.

either way
fork it over, rich people.

so it's come to my attention

and perhaps this has already come to some people's attention

particularly

people who,

when they were twelve

saw Jurassic Park

my main philosophy in life

revolves around

FUCKING CHAOS THEORY

i've at least looked down upon such

goldblum-isms since the movie's conception

but now i realize

constantly accommodating for nature and life's infinite possibilities

at least carries shades of chaos theory

something i know nothing about

and is literally relegated to the realm of 

hurricanes and butterflys

if i'm wrong in correlating the two

let me know.

because i want to know

if my main philosophy in life is CHAOS THEORY

because i feel like such

PULP

is exactly that.

basically, it comes down to this:

a grip that is slipping.

i desperately want people,

mainly those who are close to me

to understand the plight

that is 

attempting to account for the infinity that is the universe

the possibility

the life

the chance

that you are wrong

dead

fucking wrong.

knowing that you know

FUCKING NOTHING

is terrifying

and sudden.

and then

something you feel like you know

like

OBAMA WILL WIN

becomes truth

makes you second guess

doubt

and then you realize

the ability to second guess doubt

IS INSANE.

drunken rambling.

blahdy blah.

i don't know.

it's like i told julian once.

life

is a gigantic game of yahtzee.

there's a cup

with 6 billion or so dice within

and the outcome

is...

in a human word: insane.

while i voted a bit begrudgingly,

it is a good feeling to finally vote for the winning party.

and i do somewhat feel like it's a big deal he won.

so hooray.

the woman is a goddamn genius.